some things were always there

ok these are the people i miss from tk.

not inside the list? I must have forgotten you or you should bugger off!

I miss Alex and Steph (+ choir people) I’m sorry I didn’t go for Miss Wang’s ROM because I was in ubin and was too ashamed to reply your sms. You girls were the most awesome during my choir years.

I miss the twins, Zhiyi, Myeong Weon whom I have not “spoken” to or met ever since I left school and remember the days when we used to skate almost every single day after school. They were the ones that filled up the gap of “guys to mess around with”.

I miss Nicholas, his guitar, his voice what nicholas ng really is. He was a good man, he still is.

I miss Abby, pre sheldon when she was free and she was really fun to interact with. Post sheldon, she’s still the same, it’s my fault I haven’t talked to her in awhile. she was a porno gypsy, still is.

I miss talking to Tina online but I just did. She really was a different person on the internet and this person was wonderful and the person in real life really is as well. I hope everything goes well with her lover.

I miss the whole gang of “flying Indians” (me and rod used to call them) because as David reminded me, they were all fucking hilarious, the best soccer players, the best men.

I miss Xiao Xuan, the way she used to confide in me and the way she used to write me the loveliest letters. She had written a letter to me and sent it to my mail, I still haven’t written back.

I miss David, but I’m seeing him on saturday so hahahahah too bad fugger

I miss Donna, the way we could really talk. Things about her have changed but I hope nothing inside that shell changes. nothing. well except the bloody alcohol content in your liver.

I miss Sophia. She was really what a great girl should be smart, pretty and really nice. I remember I slapped her during a campfire in Secondary 2, her sister wanted to bring it up to the principal but she said it was OK, her friends wanted to bring it up to teacher, she said it was OK. I owe her a mountain of gratitude not just because of that but because of everything else.

Most of all, I miss Roderick, I really really really really really really really really miss Roderick. Everything about this guy has “perfect” written across his forehead like a headband. And he’s the only guy who has ever bathed with me, well till NS comes but fuck NS

Everything I feel now, I am filled with immense regret. All of you whom I’ve listed down were what made the 4 years bearable. I can’t believe this brings tears, but let this be a solemn promise I will cross each name out when I meet them or am going to meet them. I will cross them out one by one and the first I’m going to cross out is David. see you on saturday