I finally told them

Am at OGL camp, for most of it, it has been good but this camp has provided with me with far more surprises than any other camp has before. It’s really appalling and satisfying at the same time.

And I finally told my house comm, and I know initially the guys couldn’t come to terms with it and the girls understood but up till now, they suprise me everyday of how understanding they can be. I wish I could give more than materialistic currency, because whatever that is intangible I am a millionaire, really.

Tears flowed, I went to find Loretta after that, she was a good girlfriend. You passed the test hon!

And so only Ms Yeow, Loretta and the House Comm know so I’ll keep it at that until other people ask for some more money. I have no idea how I am suppose to materialize money out of thin air to pay everybody. I am beyond a Loan Shark’s reach, I can’t imagine how terrible the person who would borrow from a loanshark would feel.

I feel guilty an everything beyond it of which I have not known, till now.

You know I used to be really sad and emotive and beyond morose. But now I feel terribly guilty.