Chaptr 155: CCUDSS

Even though I don’t really believe strongly in putting your grades up, the grades are above, the U being what other thing besides maths.

And you know how we try to deflect blame from ourselves for our grades by saying we did so much better than other kids? that does not work and will never work with Malay mothers who somehow tie it back to you and you being their son and what nots. A survey done concluded that Chinese parents do not do so.

If I didn’t go to Australia, I would have gotten better grades so..its’ your fault parents! hahahaa

And I know MJ kids would be going, you should be proud of your results. And I know if I say I’m not, you would just lambast me for being this complacent half fuck but truthfully, I’m not satisfied.

I told David before, how I never want to come across as the typified MJ student. I’ve heard horror tales about mid Years, promos, MBTs and tests inbetween that come with unsightly U grades and they treat it so casually. As if getting a U was normal in MJ.

I mean we can always use that as an excuse, but for how long more do we break the stereotype that half the time we’re studying, is only to get promoted and the other half for A levels. I dont want to be the student with a string of S’s and C,D,E,S,U grade, I wnt only A and  to appear on my certificate at the end of the day. But MT’s another story, I can get a D/E for all i care.

And since when have my brothers ever got such grades as bad as mine? I can top my class for all I care, top my level, top MJ or have the best A level results ever but if I don’t match up to my brother, what would it matter? What. Would. It. Matter.

I hope I come out of MJ alive and kicking, my friends with me. Please dear God, do not sap the life out of them, I want to see smiles everyday, I want to see Edwin wriggle, irsyad sing, lynette’s hair, loretta yawning, fighting with zakiah, shiva greeting me with captain, acquaintences smiling at me and everything in between.

I have asked God for better grades, asked him for my happiness, asked him for my love, asked him for my dreams to realised but let this be the day I ask Him to grace everyone else with happiness.

Here’s to the betterment of life.
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Smile.

Smile.

Smile.

Just smile.