wordpress has run its course. It’s been a good wordpress with 955 posts so far and I usually have a habit of leaving my blogs near 1000. So I’ve moved to jotterbookconstruct.tumblr.com. I like the community there and hope you’d like it too. Warning though, you’ll never hear me talking about school again…I hope. Trallallala goodbye
So resigned to my fate, so resigned to my fate. I’m highly doubting my ability to tackle the A levels at the end of the day, there sorely lacks the motivation and drive I want so much the drive I had for O levels…it’s just not present yet. I’m not settling down.
It’s one thing knowing what’s wrong with yourself but not knowing how to go about ascertaining it is really the worst part. Yes, there’s the pain of discipline which will hurt but the pain of regret would be the niggling migraine at the back of your eye and get worse. Don’t regret amirul, no regrets!
It’s now or never after this all Amirul. Keep your peace of mind, peace of heart but most importantly peace of soul al 21 grams of it
David has a very skewed perception of the typical junior college student but lo and behold, that perception is something I agree with. And whatever perception of poly kids is skewed and yes lo and behold, something he agrees with (or does he I can’t remember?). As much as we don’t like it or as much as we do, there will always exists this social hierarchy, this social disparity, the almost polarization of the savage society of the teenagers.
He always thought that the jc kid was one always complaining about school, willing it to end but secretly wanting it, but still going with the flow because he has no choice and is enthusiastic about school activities. I for one fit every single criteria that he proposed so am I a typical JC kid? As much as I would not want to be called as such and as much as many of us prefer not to be labelled such a term, 1.5 years on in the school has moulded our brains and our education into one that we cannot escape from and am entrapped by. As much as we hate it, we are forced into it just because we are.
Then so many of us attribute it to the ’system’…i hate that word. The word tells so much of a person and his cowardice. I may have used the word before but not lately because we keep blaming the system, talking about how trapped we are within that system that we pretty much are resigned to that fate within it and not do anything about it. Truth is, boys and girls, there is no system. There is no invisible, intangible yet omnipotent being around us that strikes fear in us more than God’s wrath. You know it’s wrong when you’re more scared of failing rather than doing potentially graceful and rewarding things in your life. And what’s worse is when you totally give up on the system, you get out of jc, you get out of poly or the worst- get out of Singapore. Ask yourself, what are you running away from?
Then again, you might be running to something so that would be something beneficial for you so….ok i’ll give that to you.
Then I thought about the poly kids. As I was watching the lip dubs from TP’s mass comm, an annual thing that they do, it was all very fine and dandy but there was something painfully obvious that might be absent in jc’s, well at least those reputable ones. The fact that the diversification of characters still remain, the fact that in each class there are the cool kids and the not so cool kids and the….whatintheflyingfkareyoudoingthere kind of kids. Those kids who totally look as if they are out of the element and bandied together to form the powderpuff gers.
TP is really a prime example about how each different school, each class interact or react differently to the school environment around them…their interpretation of the campus lifestyle.
This however is sorely lacking in the JC because JCs…like it or not stratifies everyone. once you’re inside you’re branded a despicable word like “mugger” or “closet mugger” or some other word obviously coined by a jc student for a jc student. characters are more of less the same (you dispute this, you think about it properly) throughout the class but there may be exceptions within the school…those who stand out but still, at the end of the day fall under the same category as the rest.
Almost two years in, we’ve lost ourselves in a sea of words and the elliptical orbit of education. And then there’s another aspect to all of this, who ARE you real friends, and who ARE people you will keep in touch with once all this is over? But that is another rant for another day.
So who is the jc kid, who is the poly kid? We’ll never find a common banner to march under, nor a motif capable of depicting the respective plights but there will always be the different clothes we wear underneath that tell others who’s the cool kid, the not so cool kid and who’s the….nevermind.
i got bored tonight and decided to note down the music i have
I know it’s nothing to be proud of and the music inside is a work in progress. Anyway it’s just a list at the page called “music library”.
Anyway i was just wondering why there have been less and less coughing and sneezing in the exam halls? Are they actually scared to be sent home? gosh
I don’t like how there are so many things to learn about economics from wikipedia that they don’t teach us like the cobweb model, the true nature of pareto optimality, what ceteris paribus truly connotes and everything else in between. They do teach them in other schools but not in meridian.
Why? I’m guessing because they couldn’t trust us with the basic syllabus so why bother giving us more right? I really think economics is wonderful because there’s so much more deeper meaning to it as it discusses the rationality of human beings, us greedy pigs, and how there’s no invisible hand in the market as Adam Smith proposed but everything is a consequence of our actions. Beautiful huh?
So I’m here to stick to my books and try and shut out all other worldly thoughts about economics because like it or not if I can’t get the basics right what’s the point of anything additional right?
The world is really beautiful, us humans are really perfect. There’s a reason they created the word right?
this is what overnight studying connotes
now now that’s someone i have feelings for you’re calling a ghost
anyway i know i’ve just been updating sporadically so much so that i’ve been toying with the idea of a twitter but I shall not join the social revolution just yet because all cool things must wait.
I think twitter’s awesome and the thing most lacking in a twitter is the personal touch to it because the profile’s really simple so like it’s quite anonymous and as I read it it’s not fulfilling- 140 characters pfft they’ll be fucked if it were a chinese twitter like in the middle of a 7 string profanity it gets cut off. hahaha
also i was contemplating the idea of writing some sort of a moppy tribute to the King of Pop but decided against it because it’s not worth it and it’s utterly indescribable how awesome of a man he was. I watched tribute after tribute, read article after article so that I could give a subjective view about what kind of a man he was but truth be told MJ will always be a king, no wacko. it’s not as if we can neglect the latter bit of his life but I remember growing up listening to his songs (like really literally) and as I watch his moves on youtube, that guy was the sickest dancer on Earth.
and for some silly reason I never believed that he was a molester…no evidence means no evidence. But it was true how some reputable person said that “Michael was born to perform onstage but he never got a chance to be normal”. Kings die, legends die, but a God? No.
On to something else less morose like the H1N1 situation in Singapore. I think the mr khaw is a great big retard for not closing schools for abit. Half afflicted with the virus in Singapore are under 20 (wait that’s us!) and….wait this is the best part, we’re schooling which is pretty much a concrete prison with several cells for students to interact. What would be the most terrible part is that most JCs are having their mid years in an air conditioned hall or a hall, practically a sarcophagus of death! I’m exaggerating but it’ll really be quite funny if there’s a cluster case in one school. then we can all point a big fat middle finger to mr khaw
Anyway, no worries Singaporeans we shan’t be too worried about the virus until MOH starts making videos with PCK inside! ONLY and only then would there be need a cause for worry people!
oh well, here’s to exams the end of it and a good cig
Each shade of blue/Is kept in our eyes/Keep blowing and lighting/Because we own the sky
It’s as if I’m looking at you the first time, my eyes are alien things as they find the most beautiful example of a human in you. i would touch you but I am scared to taint you until i realized i had just kissed you. And loved you till for forever
I built you a garden and a house inside my head because I know you’ll be happy there. my words are your cobble stoned path, they reassure you enough for you to step upon and carry on to your journey to the gate. And as the sun’s rays are interrupted by a gridlocked canopy they fall upon your maudlin mien. So beautiful, so b e a u ti ful
hi lorry!
1. i nearly lost everything yesterday because i nearly lost you.
2. i really wish we were back to PAE times when we would stick together. i’m just not there anymore.
please please dear god don’t let me fall apart physically and emotionally. let me die in sleep.
